Old woman and the sea/not alone anymore

Michi got back from Thailand!
Went to Glasgow airport at noon to meet him there.
So it´s not only "me" anymore, it´s "we".
After 6 weeks being on my own again and after feeling being left alone most times of the last three years I am a bit confused about it right now...
Don´t wanna end up walking on my own the rest of my life but am afraid of getting lost again in something I can never have...