Mushroom.

I found this mushroom whilst out walking this morning, and I thought it was pretty cute. I was half-expecting to find a fairy perched on top of it.

Today was the day of travelling back to rainy Newcastle and leaving sunny Yorkshire behind. I've had a good time, and I got so used to being there and I was enjoying myself so much that I didn't want to come home; but I missed my Mum, Courtney, my cat and my bed, so I was sort of ready to come home.

For some reason I've learnt a lot about myself in the past week. I think it's just because I've been away from everything/everyone and I've had time to really reflect on the past year and what's happened since January - and it all seems so crazy. I've met some wonderful people and friends that I'll never forget, and I've also lost a lot of friends. But that's inevitable. I've been a truly horrible person and I can see that now, I didn't at the time but now I can learn from my mistakes. I just hope that the people who endured that will forgive me in time. I miss Rosie. I miss how easy things were and how we were inseparable and our in-jokes and crazy cat-talk and just aimlessly wandering around. I miss Holly even though she doesn't like me anymore, because she's one of the nicest and most interesting people I've ever met. I miss Lesley because we've been friends for years and we just got on so well and we would talk about anything to make us laugh. And I've upset them all because I'm stupid and I can't change anything now, it's too late. And I can't say this to their faces because I'm not that type of person; I don't tell people how I feel. I can only be honest here. But I genuinely feel like a different person, I'm not the same little bitch that I was before. And I mean that, I'm not just trying to make myself feel better.

Come morning light, you and I'll be safe and sound.