big nosed washington

I'm just going to say straight up, you don't need to read all this.


So I've got this dilemma. I generally like doing stuff, but not, maybe, the kind of stuff you might be into doing, you know. And I'm also extremely forgetful. Therefore I keep lots of LISTS. I make a lot a lot a lot of lists. Post-it's are your friend! And I also have a lot of things in my head from time to time that I think, "Oh, man, that's, just, great, I should do that....but first I have to do these here eight-thousand other certainly more important kinds of things like read books and go to college and such so I'll just put that off for LATER," but the thing that I thought of in my head was probably something rather stupid and pointless but momentarily enjoyable, such as watching a certain movie or getting back into a certain video game, and I know, I lead the over-privilidged lifestyle where I have to chose between going through my government-provided and -regulated education process and going into a capitalistic world wherein I can do lots of things that I want to do, and doing the kinds of things that require sitting or cutting things out or illegally downloading this superhip album or whatever it is. But you see now, and bare with me here, the dilemma comes in, do I write this thing down or do I just hope that I forget it and do more PRODUCTIVE things? I mean I don't know if I'm actually going to forget it because sometimes I don't forget things when I don't write them down, and suddenly it's two years later and I still want to see the movie Milk!

And while I'm doing these things that lean more on the productive side, I'm extremely easily distracted, because I generally do not enjoy these things, and I am susceptible to take up one or a few, even, of the less productive things, which is all right, every once in a while, but most of the time when a due date is approaching, it is not. And I feel as though if I take note of this silly thing I want to do or make then I might be less likely to stick with the thing that I have to do and more likely to want to do the other thing. But then I'm always going to be doing the other thing at some point, so I might as well be doing semi-nice things, for example, watching the movie Milk, as opposed to retrying on clothes I bought or doing laundry of clothes that are already clean or scrolling on Twitter or Tumblr, or any seriously unproductive thing. Because I'm sure you'd agree that Milk is better than Twitter-whores? Right? And I'm always going to have something that I want to do instead of doing the thing that I have to do, so why try and cut that list down, because I'm never going to say, "Okay, now that I've finished rearranging my furnature, I can happily do all the work that I have to do for the rest of my life with no distraction."

It's almost like having to chose between preaching birth control or just telling them not to do it. If I do something, I'm going to want to do that one thing! but at the same time I shouldn't be doing any of those nasty things like writing three paragraphs about this dilemma I've got and I should be doing that one thing that I have yet to mention because eew it's so gross I do not want to do it

anyway. today i watched milk and did not do any homework at all. my remaining homework count is

the last third of gatsby
every sparknotes page of gatsby and jane eyre
one and one third chapters of ap us
two thirds of a physics packet
sorting through some odd 5,000 digital pictures and narrowing them down as much as possible because the assignment was 500
printing out nineteen INSIRING IMAGES
make presidential flashcards

DONT WORRY I HAVE TIME OK