Blue

Sunrise.

Today has been horrible. There are changes at work, due to start in January. But because of several circumstances it all changed today. The girl I work with closely in our room has started her maternity leave from now, so now I am working with a girl who has just started.
More things are changing and I am not coping with it.
I ended up in tears as I let it get to me.

Got into the car tonight and the tears started and have been on and off since.
I have self harmed a few times but it hasn't helped much.

I think I'm going to take my tablets early and take a few diazepam and go to bed.
Dreading tomorrow.