Why?!

This sledge is sitting outside my down stair neighbours door. He is known for finding things and doing them up or trying to make something. He has got our shared garden looking beautiful.
Goodness knows what he is going to do with this. Has he found it? Has he made it?

Today I woke up feeling so low. It took me ages to get up and ready for work and was late.
But I didnt care. I had no feelings.
I have been in tears several times. All day feeling nothing. All day not caring.
Then I had to go and visit grandma.
9pm and finally home, looking for food but not really caring and can't be bothered doing anything I find.