Hanging on

Had to quickly get this blip up after yesterdays which was also posted today - I can't seem to catch up with myself but need to clarify the situation after yesterdays blip.
I woke with a splitting headache so took tablets, messaged Friend to say I was unable to visit if she needed company and then slept till midday. I still felt funny on waking and thought some fresh air might help, so had a short walk and then  called in on Friend. If I was not welcome at least I would find this out for sure - time is too short for misunderstandings.
She was asleep so I put the kettle on and as I did so she began to rouse. She was in pain and down as the new medication that had made her so much better yesterday was not working today. I made her a drink, gave her meds and a hot water bottle and we had a brief chat before her daughter arrived home from Bristol. I messaged her later to say if it was ok with her I would just pop in from now on and take the chance she would be asleep. I told her if she was awake but not up to it she could tell me to piss off! She was fine with this! So thats one worry off my mind, but she spoke again of dizziness. 
I'm feeling a lot better from having seen her but must admit I am struggling - with everything. It's taking me a lot of effort to do things, once I get started I am fine and my energy levels seem to surge. Tonight I dug rain channels around  the chickens outdoor shelter in the rain as I waited for them to eat their corn and go in the coop. 
Although I know actually doing something will make me feel better, I'm not sure I can always do so. I love taking photographs but the energy  to process them is diminishing and as I do them I feel frustrated. I've got too used to processing them to allow the camera to do it for me so don't even suggest it! I'm afraid I'm an all or nothing woman! 
I guess I'm saying I may not be a daily blipper for a while - it will be as and when the mood takes me. I will try to follow your Journals as I don't want to lose touch, but I may not always comment. Who knows, I may wake up tomorrow and feel entirely different, but I'm thinking things are soon to get really hard and I'm going to need every ounce of energy and will to get through it. At the moment I just feel an emotional train wreck.