STONE HEART

I grew up wherein I cannot express my feelings (no democracy at home---LOL) until I graduated College. I celebrated independence when I started to work. At work love begins, my tragic story ever! Day by day for almost 3 years inside the office I have to be a great pretender to man I love. We are so professional to each other. A game of hide and seek, so crazy! I was trapped in a love where I cannot express my feelings. I was so broken during those times. It came to a point when I don't like to go to work anymore; tired of hiding and pretending. I was like a bomb before that ready to explode. During that time running away was the best solution.

These experiences developed to anxiety. Fear of.....and fear of...

That experiences of my childhood and love made me frank, outspoken and expressive. I always want to express what I feel just to be okay and free. Even to my friends if I'm angry they know right away 'coz it really shows. To me what you see is what you get with no pretentions. A transparent and real person.

Tested by time,pains and circumstances my heart is hardened as stone. For me stone doesn't imply negative meaning. Stone is a symbol of being tough. Today, I call myself a tough woman! Goodbye vulnerability!

I am emotionally strong, I owe everything to God.