Thank you...

I'm still not seeing the good (there's an edit to yesterday's blip that might explain more). Today I'm hit with wave after wave of tears and devastation. I'm going to the doctors tomorrow. I can't work like this. I need some time...I think that's natural.

Anyway. My intention. I wanted to say some thank you's.

First of all..to my Blip Family. As I'm sure you all understand, my mind has not been in the right place to thank you all personally. So I'd like to thank you all now for your wonderfully supportive comments. My gratitude goes out to AMC, Angelabc2378, bru89, diverdriver, Doodlebugroach, DrPippaLot, Ducky, karenjulia, HRHCinderella, inkface, LUSH, minxydudette, purplenuckin, RachelD and shepherdess. I wanted to give a special thank you to Fuzzy14. I do so appreciate all the comments I've received, but I know Luke really responded to that one particulars comment, telling of experiences he's had with his wife. I've had so many lovely supportive comments and messages from women who've gone through similar situations, so I think Luke really responded to another man who'd been through a similar experience.
So thank you to you all.

Friends
Through this all, as my very wise parents told me, I have definitely found out who my true friends are. Some, who I thought would always have my back, have completely deserted me and shown their true form. Other people, who I wouldn't expect, have some forward and offered their support. My brain has not been in the right place to thank everyone so I just wanted to thank the following people for offering their support:
Alan D, Alan JP, Alex, Ange, Angie, Caitlin, Charlie, Daisy, Dave H, Dave M, Gemma, Grace, Kate, Katie D, Katie S, Laura, Lis, Louise, Maria, Robin, Sian, Stephen, Sue, Work (namely John, Sarah, Stacey and Tom) and Zoe.
Thank you to each and every one of you for your kind words.

Family
Thank you to Si, Kim and Jade for offering your support. The three of you have been absolute diamonds.
Thank you to Ayleen for your kind words.
Thank you to my family in Ireland for your good wishes.
To my close family:
Ruari, you're my ray of sunshine. Your hugs make everything feel better, even if just for a moment. The bond we have is amazing and I hope that never changes.
James, thank you for offering me a chat, giving me that much needed hug and just being there.
Bekah, you have pulled through in a way I never expected. You called the minute you found out and were so supportive. You've also defended me in the most ferocious and funny way. You're a star.
Mum and Dad, you've both rallied around us. You're helping me through the heartache and pain and I can't tell you how much I appreciate that. I also want to thank you for not only supporting me, but supporting Luke too. I love you all.

Luke.
My rock. The love of my life. My soulmate.
Meet Luke, the handsome chap in my blip today. He has been there for me over these last few difficult months. He has been so strong. I know he was looking forward to becoming a father, but clearly now just wasn't our time, but one day, it will be.
I've never fallen for someone so intensely, so quickly. He is impossible not to love. He's gorgeous, funny and for more than I deserve. I must have been really good in a previous life.
Luke, thank you for putting up with me, for being there and, most of all, for loving me.