Broken

Me, my car and this gate.

Every time the garage has my car and tries to start it, it starts! But not with me.
They ruled out a few more things, did a diagnostic, and found where the problem could be. The bad news is that I have to go to the car dealer to fix it. Steven picked me up tonight to go and get it; it started! Back to mine, and then on Saturday we will take it along to the dealer.
So frustrating and expensive.  

I went down to Asda tonight to buy Steven some lots of booze for helping me.

I could feel a panic attack coming today at work, there were too many things going round my head repeatedly.
I managed to escape the room, head to the toilet and self harm.

I have taken a half day tomorrow; its Steven's birthday and I need to sort some stuff out. Would be nice too just to sit and do nothing. This has not been a good week.