wheels

too much driving, all the time lately.

i am living between two cities and it's exhausting.

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dinner at the dean's. meet a thousand people that mostly already have the privilege of knowing each other. meet two of your roommates, alan and peter, for the first time. chat with jennifers and laurens and people who are supposed to mean something to you over time.

remember the word with brian, the subtle contemplations of academia as fraud. means to an end.

the plan is already derailed by 8:30p as i've overstayed my self-imposed limitation at the dean's. peter and i leave to get milkshakes at p. terry's. i tell him probably more than is reasonable.

my brain is rattled.

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and then for some reason i follow the lead of the aforementioned brian and meet him at aj's party. out until past 2a. this was not in the plan. ah, but austin isn't really in the plan either is it?

i am still resisting this one tooth and claw.