The Day After

Last night I got to sleep with the help of diazepam and this morning I woke early feeling as tired. I woke with a sore back and hips and I have a few bruises. Spent the morning texting colleagues making sure they were all okay. They were.

Tried to get on with the day; walked to work to get my car. I wasn't sure how I was going to be with driving , I was a bit more cautious but it was ok. Went to the supermarket then went for a walk.
These stones have appeared on the Water of Leith.

Came home 2ish and fell asleep on the sofa. Everything I have done today the tears have appeared from nowhere. I am aware that I am thinking about it all the time and replaying how it happened.
And I'm asking questions that I'll never get the answer to; is she sorry, does she realise it was a stupid thing to do, is she thinking about the children.