I am so happy with him. 

Written on June 16, 2016:


Dear you,

I have something to say. 

I have been processing again (and I can hear you say, "uh oh..." but trust me, it is something good) and I think I should share this with you. 

I want to say thank you for all the times you were willing to share your past with me. All the good and the bad, (yes, even the ex...) and possibly, even the ones you have not share and probably never will. 
But I also want to say

I am sorry. 


I am sorry for all the moments when I dealt with them immaturely. 

I realized that, instead of looking at everything you have decided to share with me with acceptance and grace, I responded with jealousy, anger, impatience, selfishness, and pride. 

I should have been grateful. 

Grateful that you trusted me that much to even tell me.

Grateful that because of your past, you have become the man you are today. And what a man you have become! The man who is somehow patient to the point that you deal with my immaturity well (sometimes, haha). The man who has such trust in the truth that there is hope and faithfulness in his future, that he can leave behind his past with no bitterness. 

I wish I can take those moments back and ask wise questions, instead of irrational statements. 

What did you learn from those experiences?
Would you say you have changed a lot from those times?


Because I bet you grew a lot. Because I see the end result right now. 


And I am a lucky woman to be the one to get the final result from those moments. 


So, I am sorry.
And I am thankful. 


Sorry that I have yet so much to learn from, but thankful that you are there to walk with me as I am growing from them.
Sorry that I hurt you with my outbursts of impatience and anger, but thankful that you still wrap me in your arms at the end of the day with grace. 



So here I am, wanting to make another promise to you:

that I will never stop growing. 


Because I want to hold you in my arms with grace and love at the end of each day as well. 



So thank you. 



And I honestly cannot hear more of what you want to share with me.