Dark Days

I am feeling nothing.

I want to sit in a corner of a dark room and cry.
I want to see no one or interact with anyone.
I want to feel something and not just by self harming.
I want all this to be over, I've had enough.

I should be over this.
I should be well.
I should be enjoying life.

I shouldn't be thinking what I am.
I shouldn't be feeling what I do.

I am glad/dreading that I am seeing the psychiatrist on Friday. The consultant psychiatrist that I haven't met before.