Emotional roller coaster!!!

Well today my emotions took another hammering!!! After a wonderful night of breastfeeds and cuddles the rollercoaster began...... he went to be weighed.. weight loss.... billirubin levels checked..... just over treatment line so was given billi bed ...as pictured...so he could stay with me, within 10mins he was whisked away and put on overhead uv back in scuba!!
Told 6hrs then to check levels again if 50 below line he could join me bk in our room!!! After 6hrs of lights levels 60 below line so I'm thinking yay bk with me... but no! !! They want to wait till next check 2am?!??? Luckily the nurse who I've become close to came on duty and said, no this baby needs his mum his mum needs him!!!! She is just in next room let them be together.... so we are currently together and praying next test is low too!!!
I cannot wait to get the hell out of here send be with my boys and my wonderful husband all together as a family!!!