Brrr

Had a mammoth newborn shoot today for the home birth I photographed 11 days ago. I got some cute pics and we had also snapped the baby's cousin who was born 5 days earlier. Lovely lovely family. My favourite of all time.

Mum had the kids as J is in London fulfilling his dreams by playing alongside some of his reggae idols. Funny how he was so nervous about this over the last few months and then with everything over the last week, his mind is focused and sharp. I really hope it goes well. We need it to go well. The talent is there and he normally performs well under pressure. Let's hope the nerves stay away.

I want the girls to talk about how they're feeling but it seems L lets it out at the most unexpected times. On W's bday she tells me about her fear of something bad happening to her baby brother just as I'm about to kiss her goodbye and send her off into school. Before I know it, I can't get that conversation back. Today, on the drive to my mums, a song comes on the radio just before we get out of the car and she says she was so pleased to hear that song as she couldn't feel her sadness for grandad for a minute. Most of the time I ask her, she pretends not to hear me. :(

The 3 girls have stayed at mums tonight and is taking them out for dinner to cheer them up. It is me, W and a glass of wine for the evening... Although I've just realised the heating is broken. Gah!