Wet

Another long lie then up and out for breakfast.

As I was reading my book I felt my chest get tight and my breathing changing. I got hotter and hotter. I tried to stick it out but I needed to leave.

It was that fine drizzle that I knew would leave drops on the grass, so before going home I had a walk round the park. It was a distraction.

Got home an hour after I had left and I got myself back into my pj's for the rest of the day. I have lain on the sofa, watching tv, self harming and dozing. 

One day I want to be free from all this.