Could this be true?

Today I was really proud of myself

I went on my first first date!

Even after everything in my past, after he turned out to not be the guy for me and even when he went in to kiss me (but I turned so he kissed my cheek, super cringe moment) I did it! I am so proud! My friends are proud of me even more so! I did it! And I can do it again! It wasn't a great date. So hopefully other ones will be more successful but I am please and proud I managed to get through it without using the typical get out protocols I had in place. I guess part of me stayed and sat through it because I wanted to know I could, because if I got out of it I might not do it again.

I don't know how I feel about the whole thing I need to sleep on it, I need to think about it.

But for now some colouring and sound of music is helping to calm me down and restart my brain after what has been a very stressful and tiring day!