Wednesday

Up again before the alarm.
Work was really hard today. I kept thinking of yesterdays news, going over and over in my head.
I now feel that the way I  am feeling is the best it's going to get. I never know how the day is going to go mood wise and I know the day after won't be the same. It's so hard to put a face on at work and with family. I want to give up, what's the point.
I came home and crumbled into a  heap on the sofa. And I'm still here.