A Walk in the Woods

It's been a funny old day today. I was up and out by lunchtime, and forced myself to take a trip to Sainsbury's. I never go there anymore, as we have a Waitrose in town and I can't be bothered to drive there! My few bits turned into an eye-watering £50. And I wonder why I'm not saving anything....

A couple of months ago, T and Ro decided we should do a family Sunday lunch sometime. I wasn't thrilled, as family time in our family is always stressful, and I don't like big meals!

As it was Ro's birthday, T and she decided to organise it for this weekend. We picked a nice pub that Ro frequents, as we can take Little B there too.

The day was warm but cloudy, and the place was nice. It went quite smoothly, although when mum and I escaped to the toilets we agreed that the whilst talking we had strayed into some dangerous territory! 

We went for a little walk with B, and he had a lovely time. He even saw a dead mouse, sniffed it, and then went down, neck first, smooshing it all into his neck- delightful! And he had a bath this morning! 

T and I drove to Woking and caught the train back to London. I miss going out, but T wanted to go home, so I bought some proper milk for my tea (!) and we went home. We were a bit like an old couple tonight- we showered and got in our pjs and then sat down to watch tv with little bowls of porridge!

I was fine, although I'd been thinking a lot which is never good. My good friend K, and some other mutual friends were tagged at the Royal Albert Hall seeing the dutch singer, Guus Meeuwis. I saw it, liked it, and thought how nice! Until further down in the comments I saw a pic of them sitting, with guy-friend. And then I felt horrible all over again. It's been 9 months, and it still hangs over me like a cloud. One step forward, two steps back. And poor T. How much more understanding can the poor guy be? I seem to be quietly in my head looking for anything that will reinforce the feeling that we're not right for each other. And that guy friend was. What kind of delusion am I living in? Maybe neither of them are. It's all so confusing. And I nearly lost it tonight. It's like the great unsolvable problem.

Are other people's lives as complicated as mine?