I don't quite know how to say how I feel

It would have been our beautiful boy's 12th birthday today, and by coincidence is exactly 6 months since he left us on the 17th november.
Went out on the lake today with some dear friends to scatter his ashes. Something we have been meaning to do for some time but never quite had the courage.
This pic was taken this morning, but just before we scattered the ashes, 3 swans flew above us, really close. Liz has always associated swans with her dear departed parents..... A sign ?

Snow Patrol: If I lay here, if I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world....

sorry, feeling bit melancholy tonight