Mellow Yellow?

Well I felt a little like Dorothy today - not chasing the Yellow Brick Road but the Yellow Rapeseed Field! I had seen a beauty on the way to Mount Edgecumb with my sister  and had intended to stop on the way home, but by then I had more than enough photos as it was! I had seen some yellow fields on the way back from Recycling and could see some in the distance from the top of our village - so off I set!
The first field I found I had to hold my camera up over the hedge - good job it has an adjustable viewer!! The scent from the Hawthorne was delicious and there was the  hum of insects and what I think were skylarks  singing above me as the tractor rumbled up and down the adjoining field. Back in the car and further down I found a gate which gave me a much better vantage point! I then went on to find 4 more!!!As usual, the image I wanted I found, but back home I realised I prefered this one as there is a hint of the old crepes!! ( Crepuscular rays - but I find this a very unappealing word to describe something so magical looking, it's not melodic to say!) I know they are not striking, but look and you can glimpse them!
Today is the first day of youoregon1's SoapboxThursday - friend got more bad news, due to her lack of an enzyme she cannot have certain chemo drugs, and the recent government reasoning whereby certain drugs have been taken off the permitted list, and you can't have certain ones without certain other ones, she cannot have the first, nor the second set of chemo drugs her Dr wanted to use, and she may be unable to have the other two he now wants as she may have the wrong Zygots. So that will leave just one chemo drug. Not what she was expecting as she had made the appointment to ask for more clarification on what she knew already. They would have obviously called her in anyway. 
So, my input today is that everyone has different perspectives, maybe  news is just news, it depends on how you process and interpret it as to whether it becomes good or bad news. For the Dr and friend it was bad news. I personally would not have chemo, preferring an alternative route, and if she can't have it it means the alternative route she is also doing has a better chance of working and none of the atrocious side effects.  I recognise my viewpoint is perhaps worthless for  as far as I know I do not have cancer, who knows what I would do if faced with that reality. 
My other piece of input is that there is always beauty, good, peace, out around us - we may not always be in a place where we can recognise its existence, but if we can possibly gather the strength to look we will find it. I am looking for it daily and finding it, for otherwise one has to question ones very existence if all is bleak and miserable - let the beauty in and it will reward and sustain you, if only a little, but maybe the more you practise doing so, the more it will help. 
I am not usually a positive, look for the silver lining, turn that frown upside down  into a smile sort of person - and I am not one now - I recognise that what looks and smells like shit is shit, life can indeed suck, but it doesn't only have to consist of this, that is what I have come to appreciate after many years of stress, loss , anxiety, grief and life shit. So look for the rays of sunlight above this yellow field - they are there!