My boys

Ive always said to people that little boys are like puppies. Truly, they are and especially on days like this where that wolf pack mentality shows through strongly. 

I say that because in a wolf pack there is an alpha male and female and how their dynamic works is that while the alpha male is around he is in charge but while hes away hunting or say in my case at work then the alpha female takes over being in charge, she is the leader of the pups. 

Today though  they were playing off  how each other was behaving and i was not the alpha female i had become the omega of the group, my pups could see i had dropped my ranking in the hierarchy as alpha female and played on that.

I woke with a headache then had a bleeding nose no doubt due to pressure so my day didn't start so great to begin with. 

I was tired, they knew it.

Kanye had an autistic day, its hard to explain but its one of those days where essentially kanye has left the building, he wasn't there. The autistic side of him shines through just that much stronger that you feel helpless because they are, in a way- helpless. He shouted and cried a lot for no real reason, he put things in his mouth a lot, he was hard to manage and couldn't settle to anything, he wandered around on his toes looking like there wasn't anyone there behind those eyes, he was expressionless and almost in a daze- a world of his own he had retracted to. I miss him when hes like this, i miss my  happy boy who laughs and plays with his toys, who looks at me and comes for cuddles.

Marley was ok except for his tantrum. He made the wrong choice annoying Harper who was happily playing posting beads, Mar kept taking them off him. He received a warning then was put in his room until he made a better choice to play nicely.

After i shut his door i heard the sound i dreaded. He screamed and shouted at me, he was really angry. He threw all his lego around his room then his brothers toys. I went in and discussed with him that he made the wrong choice and asked him if he thought he was making  a good choice now, he knew he wasn't, he said he'd clean it up so i shut his door to let him do just that except he started throwing things again. I was at the end of my tether, i was ready to cry,i was exhausted. 

I went in and said to him very simply that if he wasn't going to make the right choice and listen , do what i asked him to-clean up his lego then i would have no option but to go get his pop.. I never want to use my husband or father in law as a threat but you know what? 

My pups know these 2 men in their lives are alpha male and the buck stops with them. Mar wasn't listening to me, he knew he could push me, i was nearly ready to give up on trying to discipline and reason with him so i needed him to realise that if he wasn't going to respond to me then an alpa male would bring their boomy non nonsense voice and sort that behaviour out, I don't want my boys to be afraid of the  men in their life but they also need to know that the alpha males always stick up for the females- we're a unit, they will always back us up.

Mar wailed 'no mama i'm sorry i'll clean up' and he did just that, very fast. 

He then came out very quietly and said ' i'm very sorry mama, i cleaned up my room' and as he patted me on the back while i rested my head on the bench he said ' i can make you feel better mama how about a cup of coffee?, i will make it'

And he did just that with a little help.

My mum came and helped do a little housework and spend some time with the boys.

Harper had a trip to the dentist this afternoon as this morning during all this stuff, he was pushing along a little suitcase and tripped, landing on some Lego. I left Mar and Kanye with my mama in law, brother in law and nephews while my sister in law took me to the dentist.

He was really upset. I noticed his mouth was bleeding , he had cut his gum and chipped his tooth as well as cutting his lip a little.

The dentist had a quick look, he thinks it will be fine as its just a bit of enamel and hasn't gone deep into the tooth, there's no risk of infection or holes or anything but i filled out an acc form so then if later on his tooth gives him problems hes covered. 

He said where its chipped isn't sharp but if it annoys him or he cant eat properly they can either file it down or put in a filling. His gum will heal up by itself and to keep it clean so it doesn't get infected in the meantime. He said if anything abnormal happens to come back in but he wants to look at his tooth again in a month. He said sometimes after a knock the nerve behind the tooth dies and can cause the tooth to go dark, in that case they'd have to remove the tooth but he said being young and not yet having all his teeth through he thinks it wont come to that.

I was really pleased i went, i was worried there might be more to that chip like a crack that ran all the way up or other damage, its his front tooth so he'll lose it when hes 6 ish.


So another long day , i love my babes, my pups but gosh they were a handful today. Thank god for family and coffee hey!