The Magnitude of Today

I’m having trouble grasping the magnitude of today. I know that seemingly irrelevant decisions that we make now may come back to affect our lives years down the road. I know that every day we must try our best and work hard to ensure the success of our futures. What we do now will determine what we are able to do tomorrow, I know that. But I also know that 20 years from now I’m not going to remember what grade I got in that class my junior year, or what that fight between me and my friend was even about. I guess I might remember these things, but they won’t seem that important anymore. Please don’t take this the wrong way, I’m not saying that I don’t think school is important, that’s not what I mean at all. I think school is one of the most important things in a person’s life. It irritates me when people say that they don’t think we need school, or that they think school is stupid because there are so many people in this world who haven’t had the opportunity for any school, and they would do anything to have what we have. I’m getting sidetracked; this is a whole other subject for a different day. Back to the magnitude of today: So I see both of these sides and while I know that what I am doing now is important I’m finding it hard to focus on Anatomy when I can so clearly picture myself on a summer day, standing in my backyard right after it’s given a thunderstorm that shook the ground and lit up the sky, just standing there with some good friends when everything smells fresh and new and the sky is still dark but the world is light from the sun that will soon return to warm the cleansed earth.  Obviously this is a problem because I shouldn’t be thinking of the cleansed earth while I’m supposed to be doing anatomy.