unraveling ...

Today I just felt like everything was just unraveling around me. Sometimes you can think that what you are hoping for and what you are expecting line up and can meet, I know what I wanted more than anything is not likely to be the case, and when had talked about it with a friend awhile ago, I really thought I meant what I said. But when the call came today, and I realized what the implications meant, I soon discovered deep down what I was really wanting, and yeah what I really am wanting is what anyone in the same situation would want, and well it would be right if it could turn out that way. But reality is that it won't and now I have to dig deep and come to terms with what reality is likely to bring and not let it bring me down.
There are so many positive things happening for me at the moment, and I am doing well with my study ... better get back to doing the assignment that is due