Two years on...

The week of our twins' remembrance smacked hard as it coincided with going back to work.

It's weird, same happened last year which I accepted as the grief was still so new but again this year the events we experienced popped in to my head on Thursday and have repeated more frequently over and over to the peak of important dates which is today. I have had little sleep in the last 24 hours as I did back then, it has been like my brain wouldn't let me rest. I haven't told anyone this other than my husband in real life, I admit that I feel ashamed that I am still such a wreck about it.

I have just kissed and snuggled my boys, for whom I am forever thankful for, and am going to bed in the hope that this will all pass with a good night's sleep.