a glass, perhaps darkly

half-full or half-empty? well, i filled it up then drank some, so the latter is factually accurate as well as being how i see life. unexceptional wine, anyway.

celebrating blip being back (yay!!!) and thought i might be either celebrating or in need of alcohol as there was supposed to be a letter on a desk today. turns out it got mailed so he hasn't seen it - but everyone in the office was offering their congrats anyway. there's nothing like railroading someone into a job, huh?

funnily enough, i wasn't offering congrats - i've been assured a decision hasn't been made, so i won't til then. they'll sound pretty hollow anyway, i don't want him to take the job and he knows it. awkward and painful conversation tonight, cut short at a bad moment by work - it feels like all the good that came out of sunday has vanished and it's all my fault. but we're not ok and i can't pretend that we are or that we will be, tho i think we can and i badly want to be ok.

i hope for a letter and a hint of a decision tomorrow, but there seem to be a lot of tomorrows over this so i'm not holding my breath.

gods, it's good to see you all again!

backblipped from here , btw.