Birthdaypresent too early :)

I have birthday soon - after 18 days I am 50 years old. I don't really know what to think about it - I have never been 50 years before ! 

And I don't celebrate it at all. It surely is worth of it, but I don't like parties of my own. It is nice to celebrate others, but I feel uncomfortable in my own birthdayparties - that's why I don't celebrate :)