Reflect

I was able to get moments of time today to myself to reflect on everything in my life. I got to step back and review things.

Sometimes it's just nice to clear out the clutter and reorganize my head. It's so full of many things around the kids mainly, but everything to do with the household in general ( Andre says he's the ceo of the house and I'm the general manager), you know day to day stuff as well as remembering things like Kanyes teachers, therapists, doctors and meds.

But then there are always new things i must not forget and I guess over time as i try to remember everything it starts to really stack up and that's how I start forgetting stuff and stressing over things that don't need any of my energy spent on it.

So today as I felt not quite myself -restless and tired all at once, i tried to find the root of my un- easiness and it was just i had all these unnecessary things creating chaos and making me feel tired.

You want to know one thing I cleared out today? After i had harper my feet had gone up a size which is typical, Well, the other day i went to buy new shoes and my feet are still the larger size! ! I was an 8 now im 9. I was annoyed at it but I'm not sure why and of course that annoyed me more; that I was annoyed in the first place. I've been stewing over the size of my feet!

See. Total garbage stuff cluttering up my brain!

As i sit tonight having my peach berry ( really hard not to say or type beach Perry) tea and my golden apricots I feel content again. And I know all will be fine in the end.

I felt so tired today as I sat on the doorstep that when Andre came to sit with me i told him I felt i needed a holiday before our holiday in march to rest up! He said I'd probably need a holiday after too to recover from our holiday! That all sounds exhausting.

But, all going well, fingers and toes crossed we are going out next weekend for valentines/ 5th wedding anniversary that was in December and got postponed twice because mar was sick. This time it's for real. WE WILL LEAVE THE HOUSE TO EAT. And not at a takeaways ether, a restaurant!

The boys were happy at home today, we went for a short walk but the weather was a bit cold and drizzly when we went so we headed back and picked up hot chocs on the way. Of course when we got back the sun shone!

It turned out to be a pretty relaxing day and luckily so as it was Andres only day off since Monday just been until next weekend.

My landlord put a new washing line up today so can you guess what I'm doing tomorrow? my gigantic pile of washing that's been waiting. Is it sad that I'm just a bit excited about it?