Just trying to survive

By NovaLovesFrogs

This is actually fairly common

Granted, you usually see it in New Mexico and Texas, and this was taken in Kansas.

Taken in the early morning hours of my 24th birthday. We left Kansas City that night, as I was determined not to be there on my birthday. My birthdays are horrible and my family turns very hostile (especially my biological mother) towards me on my birthday. It's been that way since my third birthday. (I actually do remember my first and second birthdays, and they were very loving celebrations of my life.)

I was happy to have put around a hundred or more miles between us when midnight arrived and it became my birthday.

Sadly, I spent that birthday in Oklahoma, visiting with someone that I considered a dear friend and that I cared about very much. For a while, that was my best birthday ever. Six months later they decided they didn't want to be friends anymore, citing that my health was 'too depressing' despite the fact that I didn't like to talk to them about my health because of that very reason.

So six months later I hated myself for wasting a whole day in Oklahoma when we could've just spent that day driving and arrived back in El Paso a day earlier than we did. I still really destest my decision to spend that birthday in Okalhoma. It was a waste of time and it was spent with someone who wasn't truly my friend who I felt very close to.

Yes, B was there, but by staying in Oklahoma we added another day to our two day journey.

I also really hate that this person also spent time with my cats, and that my cats liked them as well. I always feel like shit when my cats like someone that turns out to be something I couldn't see.

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