Revision Begins...

this time tomorrow i will be finished my higher english close reading and critical essays exam, but this time today - i am revising, or doing anything but. i can't focus at all, the more i try to revise the less seems to be going in... is that even possible?
my soundtrack for today has been only love - ben howard, it's an amazing song, just love it! it's been keeping me calm, which is fairly unusual as this time last year i was having panic attacks and couldn't keep myself still! no worries - this year i'm fully prepared with my calms and relaxing playlist to keep me under control! aswell as my music and meds i've been eating non stop, lots of junk food which makes it 10x's worse. i think i'm aloud though, it's exam leave. no-one keeps to their diet on exam leave, so i keep telling myself..

well i suppose i've already spent too much time avoiding revision, time to get my head down :( wish me luck!