Lewis Again.

I knew as soon as I woke this morning what kind of day it was going to be. Within minutes of being awake I was in tears for no apparent reason.

I slowly got ready to go along to work to hand in my secret santa gift. It was hard going along and I felt awkward. When I got there I remembered what my old life was like and felt quite emotional. Spent an hour or so chatting to everybody before leaving.

Headed down to see Lewis; Mum was looking after him while Kelly was on her work Christmas do. Spent the afternoon playing with Lewis while feeling quiet low and empty.  Came home after having tea with Steven, Mum and Lewis and the tears flowed.   I just feel all wrong.