Father Christmas

An hour this morning was spent with Kelly and Lewis at Maddie and Mark’s soft play Christmas Party.  He got to see Santa, sing songs, play in the balls and enjoy some party food.
I felt nothing this morning, I had no enthusiasm and I didn't want to be there. I put on a face and it was hard. I feel horrible feeling like this especially towards Lewis. I came home and cried.

This afternoon I saw the psychiatrist. A lot of chat, my head is all over the place. He has booked another two ECT’s; the next one is on Monday.