.Empty. Lonely Sojourn .

Today's my Mum's birthday.
She would have been 55.

It's been close to 4 years
since she's passed away from cancer.

How Time flies by..

Does it really heal?
Maybe.
How does it make one feel?
..sorry
for as Time stretches indefinitely,
without her there
to share in my sorrows,
to partake in my joys

And the uncertainty of what awaits
Beyond
Whether we will meet again,
after our brief earthly sojourn..
If so, when?
If truly, how?

Unknown,
it rattles, unsettles the soul.

Woke up early and took a cab down
to the nearest Catholic church near my campus
to attend the 6.45am mass.
It lastest about 25mins
--shortest mass I've ever attended.

Alone, I took the long walk back...
across the overhead bridge,
along the highway,
down the pavement..

Sometimes I'd like to think
that she's somewhere among
the clouds, up in Heaven,
where she's looking down at me

Clear skies, fine weather,
Warm morning sun..
It was a fine day.

Happy Birthday, Mum.

and now it's pouring.. continuously, as if it would never end..