morning

went to have coffee/breaky with a besty of mine<3
i miss him tonnes. we've been friends for a long time. and due to our relationship statuses, us hanging out & being friends isnt allowed. so i'm sparing his name here

walked through the trails. thought my heels were a good choice, till i realized it was sunday, and people were going to church. and i look like some skanky chic walking home from a night out.

went to an old favorite restaurant of mine & his (seperately favourited) and it has new owners!

omgoodness. the service was awful (and difficult to understand) she didn't bring me cream for my coffee, utensils for our meal. and when she asked him what he wanted she said "what kind of sauce" he said "sauce?" cause he ordered bacon & eggs.. she said, no you know, like bread. he said brown. she then said whaaa-ite. he said no.

there was a hair in his cooked egg.. his toast was limp. mine was fine, hard to fuck up a chicken caesar pita. his over medium eggs were hard.

i asked if he was dissapointed, he said yes, a part of him died. the breakfast part :(

his sister has struggled much more with a lot in life than I have. he has taken her out of a hospital into his care, he takes care of her everyday 7am-10pm with what, weekends off?

this poor guy doesn't get half the credit he deserves. his gf takes him for granted, i'm sure his siblings appreciate him he's been what seems to be much more of a father figure & a great caring older brother than just a big brother who'll be mean to your boyfriend if you want.

he deserves a better life. i hope he gets it someday.