life is like a box of chocolates

So today has been a down day, aside the fact my favourite sport formula one started its season again this morning my day took a turn downwards.

The wonderfully horrible picture i feel best describes my day, the first cigarette is amazing, and at the end you feel like you should quit, of course today is mothers day as well, and as much appreciation ive shown my mother, its all been shovved back in my face, feels like ive got very few people to offload on.

To best describe me im a bottler, i hold back my emotions, until one day I suddenly offload on someone, and this tends to bite me hard, and the person i offload on, and i fear it costs me the things i want to get out of life.

Even though im a free person, i can come and go as i please, I cant wait to find my own place, ny rules, my emotions, my life, I love my parents dearly, and of all days should I be feeling this today?

Thats an open debate question, and one I dont think I can answer myself just yet
So on that note good night everyone, lets hope tomorrow the sky is clear, and the spring air gets me pumping again