unscrambling

found myself reading this site a lot lover the last few days. an amazing resource and such a brilliant, brilliant logo.

and I'm probably not the only one to notice that.

dun't help though. i'm still clueless as to what's the right thing to think or do. maybe i'll just be me and say lots of the wrong things and hopefully some of the right ones. i sent a few messages to my friend's wife earlier, and sent one to him today too (whilst on the loo. as blokes do). i agonised for an age about what letters to tap, changing and editing for uncertainty's sake, but in the end stripped it all down and just told him i'm here. i've not heard back and probably never will, as the reality is there's nothing i can do (and the anguish that causes is numbing. which ain't all that nice).

hope he pulls through this, i so so do. i look up to him in more ways than he knows.