Indifference

Everyday is a challenge.

I was actually allowed home super early today but - NO.
Purposely chose to stay out. I've never like it at home, honestly.

Happened to pass by a mini amusement park tonight.

By right, the place should be filled with laughters. But all I hear was melodies from the rides. Sadly, it was a sad park. Nobody plays there. Most who bothered were actually adults. Maybe they're just like me. I felt like a child all over again. I wished the ride would never end. I wished the uncle would let me go on the ride again and again since there isn't much people anyway. Quite upsetting to see the park so deserted and empty.

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Just have to be reminded by the same thing again and again.
My poor little brain... fretting over every single thing in my life right now.

Losing appetite.

Why does it seem like nothing is working.
Perhaps you're slowly dying inside waiting for it to take place.


I wanna know if things are the same as before.

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It eats me up inside whenever I heard, "You wont understand"

I would never say that to anyone.

At least today we did talked. I'm more than thankful for that.