Teetering

This is how I feel today.

On the edge of despair. I made a fool of myself two weekends ago, in front of family. Not down the pub, where you arent known by anyone. In front of family!

Alcohol and I do not mix, dont say well take it in moderation, because I cannot. I have one, I have too many.

Family say the following day, dont worry, forget it, get over it. But the contact has gone, the sponteneity is no longer there. I cant say the things I want to, I am cut out.

There - that is how I feel today.....teetering....sounds pathetic, but it isnt meant to.

That is just how I feel today.