It's been a strange weekend. The wkend has been filled with drama bit it's all worked out.... Which makes a change.

I've had a bad feeling since last week which just won't leave me. The knock on effect has meant that I haven't been sleeping. I'm somewhat if an insomniac anyway but the past week I've clocked up around 6 hours sleep in 6 days. I keep telling myself this is not an achievement to be proud of.

Anyway, to remedy said sleep problem I decided to take a sleeping tablet. The experience wasn't as sedate as I had hoped with the onset of static like images and partial paralysis before I eventually dropped off. Scary stuff! I thought I'd wake up feeling bright and refreshed but in all honestly i don't think I'd have felt any worse if I hadn't slept a wink! It took me hours and several extra strong coffees to actually feel even half like I could function.

A friend of mine said maybe I should try meditating and to use a candle flame to clear my head. I've been staring at this for the last hour and I seem to be able to do everything but empty my head. Although the things that seem to come to mind are trivial like 'I wonder why you get that comforting feeling from a yellow flame and 'does that shade come in a one coat paint which I could slap on the Walls and stare at all day'.

I do wonder how it is You can 'think empty'. Surely If you think empty you're sill thinking!