white.

It's 1:50am here in chicago right now and the snow has finslly stopped. Probably stopped hours ago but it was brutal today!

It's been awhile... Typical of me to not update everyday, or even weekly now. But a lot of things have been going on for sure... Maybe too many for me to type it all down on this little iphone as I lay half awake, half asleep.

I'll say something of my current mood though (so I can at least fall asleep later): confused Just gotta stop beating myself down all the time and start reminding myself of the Truth. Be rooted in Him and surrender.

I feel like as last year, my ultimate "search" was "what is really God's love?", it has become "what do I want and where does He come into place with that?" I know some people might read that as a selfish, incorrect way of asking it, but what I mean by that is I gotta stop shaping my own opinions, decisions, emotions based on other's all the time. I need to start setting my focus on Him and Him alone and go from there.

No more placing others before Him. Instead, place Him in everything and everywhere insteaf of just first.