Blue

This is my Blip Challenge Entry this week under the theme of blue.

Had thought about doing a self portrait as thats the way I have felt today. Not like anything is causing it as so much but just a general meh feeling. Have been feeling nauseated for the past couple of days but this may be the citalopram kicking in. I decided however to get out in the crisp frosty air with my camera for a walk. My fingers were telling me I had been out a while but it was only an hour. I feel better for getting out but was hoping to feel a bit more relaxed than I do.

I've been thinking about being on the tablets and the way the doctor spoke about it. I'm in no way ashamed to be on them. It doesn't worry me what anyone thinks about it, if I had a headache I would take something for it so I don't see the difference here. The only person who has an issue is me. I am the one who has known for a long time that I have not been ok, I am the one who needed to admit to her that I needed help, I am the one who had to struggle to explain and be honest about how I truly felt. And ever since I did I've been kicking myself, it was such a weight off my shoulders and I questioned why I hadn't done it years ago. Well the truth is I wasn't ready to for whatever reason.