Missing You

Today is a good day. Everything is fine - for the most part. This morning I knew I had to walk - just to "ease my mind" (as one of my dearest friends from Nigeria used to say). My mind has been un-easy because I realized, while walking, that I miss my baby-girl. Oh, don't worry! She's alive and well thank the Lord. Due to some legal/court issues, I haven't seen my girl.

Today is Christmas and two days ago [the 23rd] was her 13th birthday. Hence, the emotions. I realized this morning, my emotions were kind of stacked up. Jasmine Denise is the best thing I've ever done. I don't think I could ever top her mere existence. At birth she was very early (premature) and tiny - she could fit in my one hand. I stayed by this girls' side for six weeks (and prayed harder than I ever have in my life). I prayed, Lord let her be long and strong! By the time she was 11 years old she was 5'8" and extremely healthy. She wrote a little story for school when she was nine: won the contest and got a book published out of the deal (yup, she was a published author before me!). Her disposition these days is: save the planet and help people. That's my baby-girl.

So this photograph is one of a person missing someone that's still alive - that's the feeling I had on the inside. But... overall, it's still a good day.