Tree

Put a tiny Christmas tree up today in the flat. I wasn't going to get one then I felt like I should get one. Now I'm wondering why I bothered. It looks quite pretty with the coloured lights on, but it's just a big reminder that this is my first Christmas in a long time on my own. I don't know why that is bothering me so much. I have felt happy with the way things are for a while now and really feel I have turned a corner and am getting on with my life but there is something about christmas and being on my own which is harder to deal with. But, that's the way things are and it could be a lot worse. Need to to stop being to stupid about something that isn't really a big deal.