MY SENSITIVE FRIEND!

This is Rosy, she was a very sweet and a very sensitive girl. Rosy loved to be petted, she loved to ride on the back of my man's truck. If Rosy didn't like the food you gave her, she will cover it with dirt or leaves. When I got another dog (Bear) she didn't like him and she moved across the street to live with my man's relatives. We still took care of her, we needed to go feed her every morning, buy food and took her to the vet for her yearly check up. When Rosy was hungry she will bark from other side of the street but she never came back to the house while Bear was alive. One day I came home and she came to greet me , I was thinking that she was happy that the Bear had died, because she moved back with us, maybe she knew that we needed her or she knew that her time was up! One day I notice that she was limping and I check her right front leg and it look purple to me, I told my man about it and he took her to the vet. I came home and my man looked kind of strange, he said to me, honey I wish I don't have to tell you this but it's better for you to know, because you are going to be the one to handle this (I used to be a very strong person). The vet told him that she had cancer and either we can amputate her leg and let her live few more days or just let her enjoy her life and put her to sleep when we feel it was the time.
I let her enjoy her life and she live very happy for about a month. One day I looked at her and look into her eyes and she had a very sad look, I knew it was the time. l look for the place, took her there, pick her up and had her funeral, everything was over in less than four hours, but my remorse still here with me!
This is something I wrote for her it's not a poem, just some thoughts!

POWER OF LIFE!
Who gave me the right to end with your life?
Is this a power that I have?
My head is spinning around
This decision is squeezing my entire mind
All the stars will forget me
The wind will erase my actions away
But my mind will hammer with eternal remorse
Please all mighty forgive my sin
How can I look into her eyes?
When I know I am going to kill her trust
How can I explain her that this is the end of her hope?
My arms are cross when illness strokes
The time I wish to stop
Sunlight comes too fast to torture my mind
Like a cat seven lives your should had
It is going to be impossible to forgive you
When you will no longer be running around
Kills me the idea of you leaving my life
One piece of my heart with you is going to die
Please hide in the very corner of my heart
Where eternally healthy you will be running around
The best years of your life was given to us
Your goal was to keep intruders out
And protect us from the danger of life
Thank you for all those happy years
You spend your life loving and caring for us
Rosy you will always be part of the story of our lives.
BY: ME AIRAMBICK