dia de los muertos

I went to go and visit with my grandma today. I have done this often, but mostly when something is unsettling me and I need clarity. There is something about sitting with her that brings answers into my world. This time though, I needed no clarity, and I had no questions - I just wanted to be with her for a minute. Everything is, for the most part, right and well in my world.

I'm a little tired, I have a bit of stress regarding finances and future endeavors, but this is normal and not at all a disruption of my life. My life is holy-sh*t good, and I am so fortunate to have been given incredible, undeniable clarity. To not live with or in confusion is a great, great gift, and I almost feel as though I stumbled upon it rather than earned it. Perhaps.

Others in my family, though, are not so fortunate. The problem with this fact is that I believe we are in total control of our emotions, actions, and reactions. We make choices. And then we must live with them.

I see people in the family who are unhappy with their choices but are looking to blame someone else, and this I do not understand. I see secrets and deceit, false fronts and finger pointing, irresponsibility and hiding, self-pity and a severe lack of compassion. No wonder there is so much discord in their hearts.

The bottom line, for me, is just this: be real, be honest and be kind, and you will receive great rewards. All will be right in your world. Without TRUTH, first with yourself and then with others, you've got nothing.

Start with being truthful as to why you are where you are with certain people in your life. Be really, really truthful. If you are unsettled and they are not, there is probably a good reason. And then go talk to Grandma.


*This was not taken on Day of the Dead, but when I arrived at the cemetery I found loads of flowers everywhere and then later realized why. Dia De Los Muertos was a day or so before, I believe.