Tired of Work

Hm...life has turned out quite the opposite of what I expected/ wanted. It's summer and beautiful but I spend my days in an office, sometimes never doing anything. Though it does feel good to get a paycheck, I don't get any fulfillment in my mind.

I've also started to expect things from people/ friends which I shouldn't expect at all. Because after all, it is always oneself that people watch out for first - selfishness has become a disease that has spread from generation to generation without any source of being checked. I'm not saying I'm not selfish, but I do think I'm one of the few who step back and think about the answer to a question before answering. I don't want to give the wrong impressions on people, yet sometimes I feel as if I'm not behaving like my usual self. I feel immature to want things, to expect people to behave a certain way.

but it's all relative, my sister says. Eventually we will just have to accept everyone for who they are and the way they act. If you don't like a certain type of person, you can just ignore him/her. I wonder how true this is. I'm not really sure that's how I want to do things.

but, there isn't much choice for me at the moment. Just video games and work seems to be my thing for the next coming weeks. I would like to go out to take new pictures but parents are wanting a lot of attention.