Ever decreasing circles

Today I awoke in a jovial mood, looking forward to a day of filming for the BBC's Britain in one day event. We had discussed it as a family and everyone was up for doing it. Well that was yesterday, this morning Mr S thought it was a stupid idea.

Girls went to Beavers, I got the camera out and Mr S tutted. When I collected them I tried to film them again and yet more tuts. I eventually managed to get some footage but every time after that Mr S would speak and make nasty remarks. Most of the footage was ruined because of him.

We went to Homebase to buy a couple if bathroom mirrors, he walked away from me when I tried to get my camera out. He was making me feel like I was an embarrassment to him, but the kids wanted me to film absolutely everything.

After dropping him back home, the girls and I went for a two hour walk to get away from him. Of course I had my camera with me and I got some great footage of the girls just walking and talking.

Things were still not too good when we got home, even though it turned out Mr S had been asleep the whole time. His mood didn't change all day and he has now gone to bed still making nasty comments to me. But you can guarantee that when I go to bed he will try his luck and see if he can get me naked. I could have a neon sign on my head saying "touch me and you die" and he would still not notice how I'm feeling. And he'll think I'm the one who ruined the whole day because I won't sleep with him!!