Ain't No Sunshine

So this is the view from my bedroom. Not very exciting I know, but I just enjoy looking up from my bed and seeing what the weather's like, and as you can tell, it's looking miserable, which I kinda how I feel at the moment.

I've been feeling very low over the last week, and this is mostly because of A. Not that it's her fault, she hasn't done anything, it's more because I can't stop thinking about her. When we were together, she made everything else disappear. All I could think about was seeing her gorgeous smile and kissing those sweet lips.

Then, after we broke up and started being just friends, I missed hanging out with her everyday, but I'd know that I could just drop her a text and see if she wanted to do something later on and we'd see each other once a week.

Now it's a different story. I want to text her so badly, but afraid that she'll just ignore it. I want to make things right, so that we can be friends again. Actually, that's wrong. I'll always have her as my friend, it's just whether or not she'll accept me back as her friend. I understand if it's hard to do at this moment, but I'll wait. Even if it takes months, I'll wait.

Maybe it's selfish of me to want to keep her in my life, but after a year together, we've had lots of fun and get on well, that I don't want that to stop. I know some of my friends are sick of hearing about things that me and A did, and whilst I don't blame them, they've got to realise that she's been the biggest part of my life for the last year. In fact, she's been the biggest and best thing in my life ever. So many wonderful, funny, exciting experiences, how can I not mention her. To do that would be like forgetting that she ever existed and I simply can't.

I have learnt a little in not mentioning her directly, simply stating "we" did something rather than "me and A" did something, but that easier said than done.

So now I've just got to be patient, hope that maybe she can forgive me and we can continue being friends, because I haven't stopped being her friend.

Wonder this time where she's gone,
Wonder if she's gone to stay
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
And this house just ain't no home anytime she goes away.

Bill Withers ~ Ain't No Sunshine