What to blip about...

There's something about a wilting flower that I love.
It holds it's beauty whilst looking a little bit sad.
It makes me feel peaceful.
It also makes me thoughtful.
There's something about the delicacy of this particular flower. The layers of the petals. It's almost like you can peel one back and see something new that you hadn't seen before.
Like a person. I'm very much for believing that people are made of many levels.
Like myself. People think I'm a hard person. I'm sarcastic and can be mistaken for a bitch. People misconstrue my quietness for aloofness. I keep myself to myself. A perfect example is when I'm getting tattooed. I'm stoic. I close my eyes. To anyone else, I'm asleep.
Underneath that...I want to tell people what's going on. When I'm being tattooed I hurt, but it's an escape from life. A way that the pain can be brought to life. Not entirely healthy, but it helps. And that's all I can ask.

I wonder if you can tell I'm not seeing the good today. I've been finding times where I'm bursting into tears for no particular reason.
I need to go to the doctors but I'm scared. I get migraines and the few days before, during and after my migraines I'm dazed and confused. It's not right, but I blimmin' hate the doctors.

I'm gonna start using blip more again cos just writing this helps.

A x