Low energy blip

Back home in Dalarö. Very hard to be here with all the memories in the house. I don't know why I keep coming back here. I really need to get rid of the house and move on.

The boys are so happy seeing their friends (and I'm happy seeing mine) but my heart is just too heavy to be happy right now. Yesterday was Anette's birthday and Johanna has picked bunches of wild flowers and filled the home with them. But it's hard to see all our things and not feel a sharp pain in the heart.

Hopefully after a few days I'll settle in. Tomorrow I am going to start throwing as many things away as I can.